Who knows??

For a few hours i thought i can find some peace.
I don't feel that bad and things will settle through time.

But for another moment everything back to the original point.

Why happiness is so short live??

Everytime i feel so bad that i want to kill myself,
But who can understand my inner struggler, things that i went through??

Who knows that i once trusted a person and i felt i being betray and devastated by the person.
When he is in the happiest time in his time, i screaming in pain??
Do anyone knows what i saw , what i experience?

I even gone through this twice by the same person.
Each time a new one a whole deal of different suffering..
I always keep in silent, is that not enough?

This time i also hope to keep in silent, but i can't anymore.
Cause it is more than what i can take , it is far more than anything.
I always scream in pain inside, Who knows??

That now i can't take it anymore, do anyone care??
I got all the blame, I hurt ppl.
But WHO KNOWS how i felt after all these things??

I never mention any detail to anyone, cause i can't.
What can i do??
CAn anyone tell me??