Thank u my friend.

This type of negative feeling have been with me for too long of a time.

I know that if this carry on is very unlike me.

I have never been like this before.

But thanks to this experience, I have gain certain things in my life.

Although i have loss my love, I gain friendships, the care from my mother and FREEDOM.

Well, now i have even more freedom in a way. 

As i can travel next year!! Well.. Cause my mum thinks that i should have an break.

So somehow she agreed!! haha.

Also i want to thanks all my friend who stand by me all this while.

I know it is not easy for u all to listen to my sadness, tears and pain.( Even in the mid-day, mid-night)

And to comfort me all this while, stay with me, scold me, give me courage and advice to move on.

And to what u have done, i can't let u all down.

Somehow i must give myself courage to move on with a happier life.

Hmm... I know i'm not that bad la... Surely got ppl who will likes me.(I hOPe)

Well... All this is part of ur phyco ah.. haha..

haha

I know i'm YOUNG, I know it is no wrong to be SINGLE now,

I know this is the time i should EXPLORE and ENJOY my youth while SINGLE.

I know i can SPEND MORE TIME doing the things I WANT, LEARN what i always want to learn, ETC.

Haha.. All these words, u all have told me more than hundred and one times le la.

Well... Somehow the bullet have went into my head la.

I will not forget how each of u help me to pull through all this time.

I will not forget. 

THANK U ppl!!

And last but no least... REMEMBER to help me spot my prince ah...

HAHa... Remember he have to save me de o!! haha.. JJ

Thanks for ur command. Appreciated.

I'm don't feel that i'm always been love.
As the hurt he gave my is more than any hurt i felt in my entire life. If he really love me to that extent, he would be bold enough to love me back.
But maybe he don't really love me as it seems sometimes, cause i felt that he is bold to break my heart to heal other people heart. That's very kind of him.
This type of hurt is far more than he ignore me.
And he don't neo how my life has been...
Probably he don't care and not interested at all..
If then.. he would know that i'm suffering.
I'm feel that i'm dying.
I'm speechless.
There is nothing i could say..
Tears have done all the work.
I must say to have people to love u and by ur side now.. U are fortunate...
U are fortunate.
I really envy u. Really.
I'm all alone..
Heart have broken. A life without heart is no life at all.
I'm All all alone in this storm..
To seek for survive.
It's harder than i thought.
If u ever see this blog again ,Thanks for ur comment.

I'm so sad and hurt. Who is there to heal my heart?

I today feel terribly sad and hurtful.

It just emotion that take over me.

I cry just as hard as that night... so so hard.

My tears roll off on my dried cheek again.

Although my heart is broken but why the pain is still there?

Why when there is nothing left i still feel so suffering?

Why when i feel so so empty but sadness step foot on it?

Why nobody can heal this heart, maybe i don't deserve to get heal like others.

If i own u anything, all this pain, suffering and tears, I think is enough to pay back to you.

I left with nothing le. Really empty.

I'm not brave enough at times, i'm not really happy at times.

Cause I'm just a normal gal whose heart is totally broken.

My world might not be upside down.

But without u, i feel i have loss an very important thing.

However, i lost it. 

Nobody and heal this heart anymore. Nobody can.

Enchanter

I HAVE WATCH ENCHANTER!!! 

It' s a film that i long to watch it.

I love to watch fairy tales, somehow i believe in it.

They are just so beautiful, isn't it?

Although i must say the movie Enchanter is a bit wield, but it's still lovely and touching.

Well, to find a true love is not easy and full of uncertain.

Cause u would know which one is ur true love.

If by eating the poison apple would let i identify who is ur true love. 

I would mind eating it.

Even the one i love didn't manage to save me.

But if i could sleep forever like that.. 

I'm contented.. 

I envy sleeping beauty, cause she can sleep till happiness find her and save her.

I'm not her, i will need to seek for my own happiness.

In fairy tales, nothing is powerful and greater than love.

Even i believe on it but the fact is i living in a NO "Happily ever after" place .

Although to seek fairy tales is what i hope for.

But I know that it is not very possible for me.

However, i need to live with it.

So i find another type of happiness.

Which maybe not love like boy gal friend, but the love from my friends and parents.

And i seek for the life i wanted, like pursue some thing i wanted to do in life.

I don't wish to miss the chance again to pursue the other things i wanted.

I wanted a simple life.

And i'm trying hard.

Blessing

In my bottom of my heart,

I don't wish anybody to face and expirance the same thing as me..

It's unbearable....

I don't wish to hurt anyone..

I have been hurt, i don't wish to know of more injuries...

May all fairies, bless me.

Halo!!

Halo.... 

It has been a long time i post my blog le..

sorry

Well... I have been my down side for quite some time but now i feel "free".

haha... Well..

i will try to post blog often as promise... haha

Recently i have been watching a lot of dramas, movies and animation.

Esp. on fairy tales!!! I LOVE THEM!!

Esp CINDERELLA!!!! OMG

Cinderella have part 3.. And i watch it..

It teaches me the way to feel for my love

haha

well... this is how i put it in simple terms.

It is thought the touch of the hands and u will feel the connection between the two of u.

It sounds ridiculus...

But i believe it...

And,

Even we can't be together,

But to think of liking u,

Happiness have surround me.

It is an unexplainable feeling.

There is no future in us...

I'm one-sided.

But i still grateful that u appear in this point of my life.

If one day, there would be a day,

We can be friends,

It would be a DREAM COME TRUE!!

To make a dream come true,

It takes lots of courage and determination.

And it's not just plain fate.