This few days my heart had been very heavy...
It's seem heavier by each day...
So heavy till i can't take it anymore - Breakdown.
I really dunno what is right and what is wrong...
Sometimes it seems like doing the right thing feels wrong;
Sometimes doing the wrong things feels right...
It's complicated. Very complicated.
I know doing all this is not easy.
I thought through courage i will made it through,
I believed in true love, I still hope to believe.
I thought i can make it through...
But i really can't do this alone...
It's like i'm am been the one doing all this myself and it's so so one-sided.
Am i?
Everyday, I heart felt heavier.
It's been so heavy till i can't breath.
I wonder if one day i give up...
What would i choose to give up???
Believe in true love?
Believe in I will meet my right one?
Believe in happiness?
Believe in u?
Or
I should:
Believe in I will be single forever?
Believe in there is no happiness for me?
Believe in U are leaving me?
Believe in i will never meet someone else?
Believe in I'm a bad person?
Believe I'm not fit for anyone?
Believe in I'm not good enough?
There is so many things..
I'm lost...
I always not very good in direction, maps and stuff...
Just hope to follow my heart and just move forward...
But why it's seem difficult?
It's either we are always escaping from the truth
Or we refuse to accept the truth.
Why can't it be simple and be happy?
Why I must be the one waiting?
Why I must be the one crying?
Why I must the one in pain?
Why i must be the one be stronger?
Why I must be the one hoping?
Why I must be the single?
Why I must be the one keep hiding?
Why I must be the one who love u, miss u?
Why I must be the one so hopeless?
I'm tire.. so tire...
I just sit and wait to hear the answer.
It's like sentence.
I'm prepare the worse...
It just like shotting a bullet into my heart...
That's is how i feel...
The one and last thing i hope is to sleep and never wake up to live in misery...
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