Listening to to ur sorrow and touch by your effort.

Now is 636am...

The reason why i post this blog is because i'm shock by a new...

Thia\s is what i learn about:

"Not a good start to the year for Hamasaki Ayumi (29). The singer revealed on her official fan club website at the weekend that she has lost the hearing in her left ear. She says doctors told her last year that it was too late for surgical treatment of a problem that dates back almost to the beginning of her career. In 2000 it caused her to postpone part of a national concert tour. With this year marking the tenth anniversary of her debut, she remains upbeat and says she will continue singing as long as she can hear in her right ear. She just released her latest album "Guilty" on New Year's Day and has a 19-show concert tour starting in early April. The bad news came shortly after her ex-boyfriend, Tokio member Nagase Tomoya (28), was romantically linked with up-and-coming young actress Aibu Saki (22). Ayu and Nagase ended their 7-year relationship just last July."

This is a piece of stocking new for me to accept!!!

I was stone for few secs to regain conscious on what i have heard...
I felt like crying out loud...( But cause got people around me i can't do that)
Especially when i heard the sentence: " due to the sharp pain in the last concert all her song she sung was out of tune and when singing the last song she breakdown and cried..."

Although I'm not her but i felt the great pain and disappointment that was felt from herself...
Scenario of the concert floating in my head...
Close my eyes...
It so painful and heart aching to visualize it..

Ayumi Harmasaki, she is my DIVA.
I hardly idolize anybody, as you all know.
But she's different...
I'm very touch by her... Not only her songs, her hardwork, her attitude, her concept, herself, etc...
I know her at the age of 14, since then i admire her a lot of what she is and how she do things...
Although i don't openly pronounce that i'm a FAN of her's but she is always a DIVA in my heart of all these years...
I always hope that what i like and admire and good ending, smooth sail good life.
I never have expect that Ayu will encounter such incident...

It's too heart aching...
People said "Guilty" is be her last album.
Sad.

I listen to the songs in the album, all the song track and sequence of the tracklist is like describing herself and what is is experiencing in this period of time...

Listening to the songs is like listening to ur sorrow and i'm touch by ur effort to make this album possible and making it so good...
It's not easy but i can feel you effort, tears and difficulties which u going through...

I'm just an ordinary gal, but i wish ayumi hamasaki and put ur best in everything u do and show us ur hardwork we can all proud about. All the best!! Good Luck!!