Believing

Love have bring me lots of pain and suffering...
It seems endless...

Pain are like burning flames...
Burn me...
Suffering are like covering my own mouth and stopping myself from breathing...
However, breathing doesn't made the suffering stop..

What really can end all this thing??

That day i saw this massage from the Mrt station.
This is the juice of it:
"To be happy or miserable. The amount of effort spend is the same."

Well.. What an statement.

What it says is right..
But to go against the current of what i feel, i will probably spend more effort.

Ironic, after so much things i still believe in fairy tales...
Probably, that is the only thing made me feel that love exist, or there is something out there called love..
And i want to believe that it is still beautiful.
Closing my eyes, picture the scenario of cinderella made it to the ball and dance with the prince..
It simply melt my heart..
It's so pure and beautiful..

Where can i find such love?
Where??

suddenly..
I wanna to cry but i neo that i'm not able cry anymore even though how sad or miserable i am...
Probably i will go blind by crying so much..
Me eyes recently been very painful, esp. when i cry.. Vision also being very blur...
Like going to be blind.
Dunno is it i cry too much or??
I dun neo... No brain to think also...

Close my eyes...

Image...
Imaging a lot of things..