New focus.

New focus is a good thing to heal up wound.
Finding a new and chanllgene thing is good, esp. it will takes up my mind
,heart and emotions.

This way less energy and time i can spent on things that are painful, hurtful.

Having new aims and goals keep me drive on in everyday life.
It's feel good in keeping me alive in this way... haha...
Well... even though is quite stressful, but it feels far more better than
feeling sad and hurt.
Stress is far more easier to handle than pain.
haha... It's seem like my pain management not very good.

Even I'm no longer important to some ppl and no longer gracious to some ppl,
not worth for some ppl. But now it don't seems to be so important anymore.

I will want to made those ppl who feel i worth for and important to
feel proud of what i have done and over came.
Not easy i would say...
I haven't achieve yet but I will achieve it....

I feeling that i'm living my own life, with a real me.